A few months ago the
ground had a pretty layer of snow covering it, preserved by the cold
temperatures. Then it started to get warmer. And as the sun shone on the
freezing ground, the snow started to melt. Exposing the ugly, lifeless brown
grass. To be honest the snow looked prettier than the grass. You could almost
sense how shameful the dead grass felt. Longing to be covered; disgusted that
you could see what the ground really looked like under the pristine mask
provided by the snow.
It hurt to see the
ground so weak and dead.
The earth around my
apartment was unseemly, I would sometimes tell the grass how ugly it looked,
because I'm a jerk. I did this pretty often for a couple of months until
recently when I noticed that the grass was not as ugly as it use to be. The
grass was starting to get a little greener.
Upon reflecting on
the way I handled the grass situation, I was confronted with the reality that
the grass didn't want to be exposed from under the snow because it knew that
people would be mean to it and cut it down. I was cutting the grass down with
my insults thinking my words would help it grow.
Despite my insults
the grass was trying to drown me out and focus on absorbing the sun. The only
thing the grass needed was nutrition from the sun and encouragement from the
soil. It haunts me to know that I may have hindered the grass from regaining
its strength and color because of my careless words. Only because the grass was
exposed, and the dead patches were made visible could the sun restore it to an
even greater glory than the mask of snow could provide.
The grass outside my
apartment got me thinking about how I sometimes try to cover myself up to hide
my weaknesses. The truth is I don't want others to see my mistakes and think
differently of me. But I know that only when I let down my walls and take off my
mask can the Son really change me.
The Son of God who
died on the cross so that we didn't have to be bound by my shame anymore. He
died for us to be free. If we allow the Son to shine on us, only then can we be
released from our captivity and insecurity.
“But everything
exposed by the light becomes visible—and everything that is illuminated
becomes a light. This
is why it is said:
“Wake up, sleeper,
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”- Ephesians 5:13-14
rise from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.”- Ephesians 5:13-14